Daily Check-in
Happy Sunday! I got fired up after my Bible study and workout yesterday morning and declared war on this stubborn fat. My weight is not going down without a fight, and I am taking no prisoners. I decided to change my ultimate goal weight to 120 pounds. My primary goal is still 130 pounds, but I want that to be my “heavy” weight when I get to my goal. It would be nice to enjoy celebration food on special occasions in the future and still stay within my target range. I am coming out of dreamland and waking up to the reality that I simply cannot get away with indulging in a feast without gaining weight. Controlling my portion sizes is not good enough anymore. I am still blown away by this realization. In a way, I am grieving the passing of my youth. My body is reminding me that I am not in my 20s anymore. Thankfully, I love Cathe’s workouts. Winning this war without working out is not an option for me.
I decided to set several milestone goals for 2007 instead of focusing on the finish line and feeling totally overwhelmed by the thought of shedding 100 pounds. I am ready to blast off this fat!
I gained inches all over last week. :-( Even my sports bras are uncomfortably tight. This is definitely not water retention. I had to buy a pair of size 22 jeans last night. :-( This battle with my weight is exhausting both physically and emotionally. It is like trying to hold a beach ball under the water. As long as I stay focused, it stays under control. The moment I look the other way, it pops back up and starts floating away from me. I am about to be shamelessly honest. If I had known how hard this would be before I started this journey, I am not sure I would have started. Do not get me wrong. I am so glad I did. I am committed to this journey. I will finish what I started. It is just much harder than I anticipated, and it is not getting any easier with time. One reason I have not given up completely is because I love Cathe’s workouts and enjoy working out with her.
This part of the journey is fun for me, and I have no desire to quit. Checking in with y’all makes the journey fun too!
Cathe also inspires me to never give up on clean eating because it is necessary if I want to transform my body, and I am working way too hard to stay this size forever. Her workouts are inspiring me to keep pressing on until I discover a way of eating that works for me.
An intuitive approach to eating is the best way to deal with emotional eating, but it is not the best way to keep my weight under control. I need to eat clean to accomplish my fitness goals. I believe it is possible to blend the best of both eating styles by simply eating when I am hungry until I am satisfied but choosing whole foods that bless my body. I can creatively clean up my favorite recipes. I am not returning to compulsive calorie counting and food logging. That leads to obsession. I can do this!
Speaking of Cathe workouts, I did the Cardio Fusion all step cardio premix this morning as well as the Butts and Guts abs and stretch. I just did the Drill Max cardio yesterday, so this was perfect! I am loving all the premixes on these new DVDs. I am planning to repeat the famous leg blast premix in the morning.
Phyllis, we are on the same schedule with workouts, but I am doing the premixes. I did the Drill Max cardio leg blast premix yesterday and the Cardio Fusion all step cardio premix today. I will be doing a Butts and Guts premix with you in the morning.
Conni, I bought some new Nike dance cardio shoes Friday and need to pull out my Kari Anderson videos! Cardio Fusion is fun with several premixes!
Susan, I wish Cardio Fusion could burn off all the mashed potatoes and pumpkin cheesecake I ate last week! ;-)
Wendy, enjoy Clean Max!
Blessings,
Heather B.
“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God” (1 Corinthians 10:31 NIV).
