conflicted success

[smurfette]

Can anyone relate to my situation? I have successfully lost 15 pounds so far in 11 weeks. I have been working out religiously and tracking my food with a food journal. I even made it through Thanksgiving and lost a pound.

I have thirty more pounds to lose.

It seems like Im losing my grip on success already. I feel into a junk food binge for a few days this week. I've lost my confidence in myself and disaster seems inevitable.

I was relentless and strong for the first six weeks of my endeavor. Now, the tables have turned and I feel anything but competant to reach my goal.

Does anyone have a clue about why it can get so emotionally draining in the middle of trying to turn your body around?

Why can't I just be motivated by my success so far and enjoy and revel in my accomplishment? Not undermine everything I've worked soooo hard to achieve.

Any insight would be greatly appreciated. I'm a woman on the edge!

Danna

p.s. it isn't that time of the month but I do have pretty powerful stressors to deal with in my life. I'm starting to think that I lash out and punish myself with food.

 

[booboo39]

Hello,
Congratulations on that 15lb loss!! So you had a few naughty days were you fell off the wagon. It is not the end of the world.

Instead of looking down the road long term, focus only on one day at a time. I have always read and experienced personally that it is the first few weeks that are the hardest.

The fact that you pulled through the first six weeks is awesome. six weeks requires alot of perseverance!! Have you thought of planning your meals out in advance? Make out your menu for 3 or 4 days in advance and go grocery shopping for the items you will need. Enlist the help of others in the household by explaining your endeavor and asking for their support. Focus on following your food plan instead of a weekly weigh in on the scale.

Reward yourself with something you would not ordinarily treat yourself to. Whether it be a flattering pair of jeans or a nice sleevless top. Maybe even a piece of nice jewelry. Or even best of all,more CATHE

I am sure the ladies here will have many more knowledgable and effective suggestions. But please hang in there, because Rome was not built in a day!!!
BooBoo39

 

[rcook]

Hi Danna, I feel for ya, I have a battle going on with myself, its been almost 2 yrs ago I was at 138 the biggest I have ever been. When I could not fit into my 8's anymore I started that very day in walking and gradually worked my way to Cathe....
I got down to 110 and then gained 6 of it back over that holidays last year and had to really get down to it to lose that plus 9 lbs... I am 5' 2"..... well over this past vacation I put on that 9 lbs back and have been battling although not as hard to lose it, but I have to now cause christmas is coming on, but the thing is now, I am exercising more consistantly now than I was then and then I was drinking more sodas.....
Just keep in mind where you want to be, and if thats not enough put the little nighty or something you really want to get into somewhere you have to look at it everyday as your motivation....... hope this helps.......... Rhonda :7

 

[nancy324]

Smurfette-

There is no reason why you can't continue to make progress. Don't waste time and energy regretting your behavior this week. In the long run, it won't mean much. No one can be perfect all the time, and you sound like you're doing just great. Look forward, not back. Don't expect yourself to be perfect. And keep up the good work!



-Nancy

 

[Aquajock]

Hi, Danna! Just a suggestion: for a week or so, put the "goal weight" number on the shelf, forget about how much you "have to lose", and redirect your focus on doing workouts you enjoy doing for their own sake, as well as eating HEALTHY foods in HEALTHY amounts that you enjoy eating.

Just take one day at a time for a week or so (or even the entire month of December, given it's That Time Of The Year) and pay attention to the input rather than the outcome, and I'll bet you a day's pay you'll continue your success.

Remember - it's the journey that counts, not the destination. Sometimes, MANYTIMES, I think people overfocus on the Ideal Me when making lifestyle changes, and that clouds the effort over the long run.

Just a thought or two -

A-JOck

 

[smurfette]

Thank you very very much for the input. I am grateful for the support.

while running this morning, one of the trainers happened to stop by and say hi. She was smart enough to remind me of something.

I have been pushing hard for 11 weeks now. My metabolism is getting faster. My ravenous hunger is surely a sign of that. I haven't ever taken that into consideration.

I have stopped beating myself up and I'm moving on to greener pastures with a few extra "clean" calories per day to help me along.

Yesterday was a bummer. My autistic son got a hold of my ipod-mini that my dh got for me on last Valentine's Day. He broke it by throwing it around the back patio. I was seriously hurting. I use it every day in my workouts.

Your kind words have helped me to buck up and keep going.

thanks again! You made my week!

Danna