bittersweet birthday..

buckeyegirl

buckeyegirl

Cathlete
I turned 42 yesterday. No complaints, great birthday, lots of Happy Birthdays and well wishes. Went to a Cleveland Indians and then Browns game over the weekend and had a great time. That's the sweet part.

Here's the bitter part. This is the first birthday without my grandma. She passed away about 6 months ago. I always looked forward to a phone call or a scrawled out note on a birthday card from her, but really missed it this year.

Ever have a person in your life that never doubted you, always trusted you, loved you unconditionally and made you feel like the most special person in the world? I did, and she's gone now. I miss her so much. Grandparents are so special.

Thanks for listening,
Heidi
 
Happy Belated birthday to you! I just turned 42 also and live in NE Ohio! :)

I had a very dear aunt who was like that. She died 3 years ago and my first birthday without her was very, very hard. I don't think I ever really appreciated her until she passed away. :( Cherish your good memories of your grandma and think of her looking down on you wishing you a happy birthday from wherever she is now. :)

Erica
 
Aww (((Heidi))) Your post brought tears to my eyes. I lost my beloved "Dedo" 2 1/2 years ago and I miss him every day. I can still hear his voice, smell his aftershave, and feel his arms hugging me. I have so many wonderful memories and was blessed to have him meet all three of my daughters-even the youngest who was six months old when he passed away. He stayed alive just to meet her I know. I'm sure this doesn't ease your hurt, but know that you were very lucky to have her in your life for so long and to have such a special relationship. Some people never know the love of a grandparent.

The pain never really goes away, but the hole in your heart will get smaller. I try to keep what we put on my grandpa's headstone in my mind always, "Where there is love, there is life."

Thinking of you,
 
Aaaw honey! I, however have not experienced that. maybe cause i'm too young, or maybe I have bad family members?? hehe. never the less I'm giving you BIG HUGS!!! :::HUGGSSSSSS!:: and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you as well hun!!
 
{{Hugs}} Heidi. Happy Birthday, first of all.

I lost a grandmother and grandfather in my teens and I have never forgotten how special they made us feel.

You obviously had a wonderful Grandma and in her honor maybe you should "pay it forward." You are too young to have any grandchildren but when he times comes, give them everything you got from your Grandma.
 
Happy Birthday!!!!

I am sorry for the loss of your grandma and for the deep dark hole that is in your heart right now. My grandma died 9 years ago and I still miss her. I talk about her all the time to my mother and tell my little girls about her. It's hard to lose a loved one but I believe I'll see my grandma again one day.
 
Thanks,everyone,for the thoughtful replies.

I think also what made me miss her even more yesterday was a house call I made to a 91 year old man and his geriatric German Shorthair. We don't usually do house calls, but this feeble man is still driving and really shouldn't be. He toddled into our work to talk to me - he's pretty much deaf, so it's more or less screaming;). Anyway, he thought his dog had a stroke. I offered to go to his house to euthanize her since he can't help her up to get outside. By the time I'd gotten there she had improved and we talked (yelled) about it and decided to give her more time. I just cried when I got in the car - just have a BIG soft spot for old people. I wasn't ready to take his only companion from him (well, he has a worthless son that lives in the basement that thought I should have put her to sleep anyway...loser, it's the old man's decision, not yours!)

So, I think seeing him and visiting with him and his beloved pet really touched a nerve with me. I became a vet primarily due to my grandma and her love for animals. So, perhaps a random act of kindness to an old man and his dog made me feel extra "mushy" yesterday:eek:

That, and I am PMS'ing, but that's beside the point:p
Heidi
 
Heidi. Just reading you post brought tears to my eyes. I just lost my mother in law and my kids were very close to her, esp. my son. I lost my mother in law (my best friend) and he lost his grammie. Yesterday he just started crying so hard it broke my heart. He just said with grammie gone what about Easter and Christmas, and my birthday is comming up. She always comes to my birthday. It just broke my heart. What has really helped me through these hard times is just talking about her. I talk about her all the time and I tell my kids that we were very lucky to have such a wonderful person in our lives. Not everyone has a grandparent that they could say influenced them and loved them unconditionaly. Your grandmother sounds like a wonderful person. Try to take heart in the fact that she must be smiling at you as you remember her and honor her with all your wonderful memories.
 
buckeyegirl said:
Ever have a person in your life that never doubted you, always trusted you, loved you unconditionally and made you feel like the most special person in the world? I did, and she's gone now. I miss her so much. Grandparents are so special.
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Heidi, this is the reason I try to let my girls spend as much time with my mom-in-law as possible. She is that kind of grandma; the kind I never had. Thank God for those special grandparents!!!!

Happy belated birthday :)
 
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