Day 31 - January 31, 2009
I can't explain Thursday and Friday. Both days finished up with dinner within my allowed calorie range and me telling myself "Okay, I have this" and then BOOM along comes a binge. 
I get mad at myself each and every time. And then I forgive myself and so the cycle continues.
Today I woke up fat. I think many people know what that feels like. I took a look at my body in the mirror in just my underwear and exercise bra. I have good muscle tone but lots of extra padding on top. I could hear Jillian Michaels saying to me "You need cardio, cardio and more cardio." So I did cardio today.
Power Circuit cardio is one of my faves but it was harder today than usual. I know I've been slacking - sometimes intentionally; sometimes unavoidably because of working so many hours - and I was feeling it this morning. I decided to tack on Leslie Sansone's Five Fat Boosting Miles (or whatever it's called). This one takes awhile and gets a bit tedious but after 5 miles I burn at least 500 calories. Total calories burned according to my HRM was 950 with today's workout!
Edited to add: I know 950 calorie workouts are hard on the body and I DO NOT plan on doing these on a routine basis. I just needed a jump start today to get me back on track - to lose a little water weight and start feeling better about myself.
I know I need to come up with a plan to overcome these binges. I know that eating too many of my calories early in the day is one thing that triggers it because I'll come home ravenous and then have to limit my calories to stay within my range. It makes my anxious, grumpy and stressed out. I need a plan is what it boils down to.
I get mad at myself each and every time. And then I forgive myself and so the cycle continues.
Today I woke up fat. I think many people know what that feels like. I took a look at my body in the mirror in just my underwear and exercise bra. I have good muscle tone but lots of extra padding on top. I could hear Jillian Michaels saying to me "You need cardio, cardio and more cardio." So I did cardio today.
Power Circuit cardio is one of my faves but it was harder today than usual. I know I've been slacking - sometimes intentionally; sometimes unavoidably because of working so many hours - and I was feeling it this morning. I decided to tack on Leslie Sansone's Five Fat Boosting Miles (or whatever it's called). This one takes awhile and gets a bit tedious but after 5 miles I burn at least 500 calories. Total calories burned according to my HRM was 950 with today's workout!
Edited to add: I know 950 calorie workouts are hard on the body and I DO NOT plan on doing these on a routine basis. I just needed a jump start today to get me back on track - to lose a little water weight and start feeling better about myself.
I know I need to come up with a plan to overcome these binges. I know that eating too many of my calories early in the day is one thing that triggers it because I'll come home ravenous and then have to limit my calories to stay within my range. It makes my anxious, grumpy and stressed out. I need a plan is what it boils down to.
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Hi!
I have been a Cathe fan for years. Recently joined the Cathe site and have been 'coming and going' on the blogs. I was happy to come across your entry! Wow, I really can relate to your note--especially when you wrote "I know I need to come up with a plan to overcome these binges." Isn't that the toughest, to come up with a plan?! I, too, find I do the food binge thing usually after hubby and daughter are in bed and everything has settled down - after 11 pm!!! So, if you don't mind me sharing, here is what I have started doing to help avoid my late night binges: I always start my day w/ water & coffee, eat breakfast-egg whites/1 whole grain toast; water, a smaller lunch---cup a soup w/crackers, then a few hours later, have a half or whole sandwich made from WHOLE GRAIN bread or skip bread & have cott cheese w/crackers & fruit--something to satisfy that is healthy; then, snack on cut up veggies and always have my water nearby. Then Dinner time - not a good cook, but have begun to plan more meals and that has helped tremendously. What works for me is grazing throughout the day - even when I do not feel hungry (have a few fresh veggies) b/c that is what helps me avoid those late night binges. ugh-they are soooo bad. Like you said- feel sooo bad after having them and waking up the next a.m. with that fat feeling! So, preplanning meals, cutting up veggies, fruits, AHEAD of time! You know it all, I know it too. We simply must do it! Also, another tactic that works for me. Next time you begin or are in the middle of a binge, ask yourself, REALLY, how important is this to me right now? I want my feeling good goal or weight loss goal MORE than I want the temporary satisfaction of the food I am stuffing in my mouth. THIS FOOD DOES NOT CONTROL ME. OK! I wish you the best! Hope I have helped in some way. Take Care, tinksmomtrying |
 
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Tinksmomtrying - Thanks for the tips. You've got it exactly right - having the healthy snacks prepared ahead of time. I know when I snack on baby carrots, red pepper slices and apples it fills me up and helps me during the day. I have to admit to not eating as nutriously as I should be - relying on the protein bars too much, eating the same things over and over, not enough fruits and vegetables. It's my own fault - laziness.
What do you about late night eating? That's my biggest downfall. I can show willpower all day and then at night my resolve just disappears. |
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That is some great advice from Tinksmomtrying. I also had a bad week and i understand your frustration. It really is tough but keep trying.
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