finally learned to let go
Posted 06-12-2010 at 08:19 AM by phoenix130
I have finally learned to let go of all the silly stuff regarding work. I had been doing well for the past few months but still had not reached the point where I could let go and just let things be. The odd little thing would get me worked up or I would allow someone to pull me into their drama.
This week pretty much decided it for me. Something positive can come out of a negative event. I won't go into detail but there was something this week that really bothered me and rightfully so. Sometimes it seems like people just try to get away with things to see if they can and/or think that you won't stand up for yourself. It was something that was being used against me that I felt was crossing a line. And to my surprise, they backed down FAST. I still had to listen to unreasonable criticism and crazy opinions but I ended up getting what I wanted out of it. I guess they didn't want to take the chance that I would make more of an issue.
Anyway, just the events happening (again, lesson learned - do not trust people at work!!) really was the final item I had to experience to finally let go. It doesn't matter what I do (within reason of course) - it's only a job and it's only a paycheque. I don't have to internalize other people's criticisms. I don't have to make a big deal out of things that really are not important. And it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. It doesn't matter what anyone else is doing. I don't have to fix everything or do everything for people. I don't have to protect people from themselves. I can just let it all go and just be. And you know what...for the first time in awhile, I had a great day at work! Who would have thought?
Now I'm not saying that my plan is stay at this particular place forever - it is still way too toxic. But as long as I am there, I finally feel I can just let it be and not internalize anything or let anything affect me anymore.
This week pretty much decided it for me. Something positive can come out of a negative event. I won't go into detail but there was something this week that really bothered me and rightfully so. Sometimes it seems like people just try to get away with things to see if they can and/or think that you won't stand up for yourself. It was something that was being used against me that I felt was crossing a line. And to my surprise, they backed down FAST. I still had to listen to unreasonable criticism and crazy opinions but I ended up getting what I wanted out of it. I guess they didn't want to take the chance that I would make more of an issue.
Anyway, just the events happening (again, lesson learned - do not trust people at work!!) really was the final item I had to experience to finally let go. It doesn't matter what I do (within reason of course) - it's only a job and it's only a paycheque. I don't have to internalize other people's criticisms. I don't have to make a big deal out of things that really are not important. And it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks. It doesn't matter what anyone else is doing. I don't have to fix everything or do everything for people. I don't have to protect people from themselves. I can just let it all go and just be. And you know what...for the first time in awhile, I had a great day at work! Who would have thought?
Now I'm not saying that my plan is stay at this particular place forever - it is still way too toxic. But as long as I am there, I finally feel I can just let it be and not internalize anything or let anything affect me anymore.
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I should try and do this. I internalize a lot and tend to take things personally. We can't control others but we can control how we react to them. Stay positive!
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