[Rose11]

After two days of searching and making calls I found an office with a female psychiatrist and a female psychologist and I decided to call and make an appointment with the psychiatrist. The lady that took my call was very nice and answered all my questions and she said that I can switch to either whenever I want to and that a visit with the psychiatrist doesn't mean I'm going to be put on medication right away or if I choose against it. I haven't been to a therapist for so long I don't even know what to do or say anymore. The appointment however is on January 12th so I'll have to wait a couple of weeks to see her and I'll have to go through the holidays without treatment too. Ugh it just makes me nervous.

About the ex, well I have to say that the only day I cried for him and our situation was the day I posted this thread. I haven't had any time or energy to cry for him anymore. I think of him and he's pretty much one of the worst things that have ever happened to me and the best thing at the same time because I can see things so clearly now. I have a lot of things to worry about besides him and there are people around me (including a friend that has bone cancer) with problems I can't even begin to talk about. I think I had my grieving time and now I'm going to start a new chapter in my life. A year from now this will all be in the past and I'll be a different person and hopefully a much better person without him.

Again I want to thank all of you ladies that replied to my post. I can't even describe how much you helped me with your words. Thank you thank you thank you.